Huh, I’m back?!?


I am actually back this time… With the weekly blog posts.

For those of you who don’t know (which is I presume all of you?) I am currently studying for my A Levels in French, Spanish and English Literature, so I’ve decided to take you with me on this journey over the next 6/7 months to give my brain a bit of a break because I get STRESSED.

So come on this journey of studying, uni (lol I’ve already applied, but I will do a separate post on that to get you up to speed!) and hopefully success (who knows).

I was inspired to restart my blog by Elm, who I’ve been following for ages, and reading her A Level and results day posts, she’s a cool gal 🙂

Hope you’re doing well, have a good day!



It's 23:56 and I've not posted on this blog in ages even though I said that I would. I just downloaded the WordPress app on my phone specifically so I could write this post. I really need to get this off my chest.
It's not even anything to worry about, and this is my problem. I worry and wind myself up about the tiniest thing to the point where I've been trying to get to sleep for two hours now, and my mind will simply not shut off.
What I'm I worried about tonight brushing past somebody on the stairs almost a month ago.
One of my fellow cast members in the recent stage production that I was in was sat on the bottom step of a steep flight of stairs that I was coming down to get onto the stage. In my usual state, I was rushing as I was late to get onto stage and flying down the stairs and she was sat in the centre. I attempted to go around her as I didn't want to disturb her and knocked into the table of microphones as I went by. Once she had saw me she profusely apologised for not moving and didn't sit there again for the rest of the run. The microphones and everything were fine, and yet I'm sat here worried about a small accident that was only partially my fault?!?
I know this is stupid but my brain simply won't let me forget about the littlest of moments that make my life into one big shambles.
I'm a mess.
I thought posting stuff like this on here might help as I'm writing it down, rather than keeping it all locked up inside… We will see.
If you got to this point of this post, I'm sorry, and I may see you again soon.

Five Colours in her Memory

My favourite song, 5 Colours In Her Hair, by McFly was released on 29th March 2004, when I was just a mere 3 years old. I will admit, it isn’t the most amazing of songs- your typical, cheesy 00’s pop! Since then, McFly has gone on to become McBusted, and released many different tunes of all different genres, however, to this day, this catchy melody still remains my favourite.Now, I can here you crying through your screens ‘WHY ROSE, WHY IS THIS HIDEOUS NOUGHTIES GEM YOUR PREFERRED TUNE?’ Well I can tell you, there is one reason; it attaches lots of different memories. I remember being a small little one, sitting in my living room, with my parents dancing like crazy men around me. I was a happy, smiley child, without a worry in the world.

But we are all guilty of looking back on memories through rose-tinted glasses. We all look through photo albums and home movies, thinking the days that we see were the best days of our lives, when actually, they were just our normal everyday lives. With every feeling of nostalgia, comes a feeling of adoration; take, for example your favourite tv programme from when you where little. It may be a measly cartoon, but it will always have a place in your heart, and be looked at with a sense of amazingness, even if it is not deserving of the rating you give it!

The reason I am writing this is because I wonder how many people actually want to change rather than being made to change just because a couple of people are telling them that they miss the old them.

I guess the point for this post is, don’t change just for the sake of someone else. As long as you are happy and healthy that is all that matters!


What do I want?

On Friday, I was asked by my teacher: “Do you know what you want to do in the future?” 

To that I replied my routine answer of: “No, I have absolutely no idea”

As a school student, aged sixteen I am asked this question at least on a weekly basis by a whole array of people, including teachers, peers and of course, my parents. 

But on Friday, this question got me thinking more than usual. 

My future is uncertain, I know that for sure, however, I find somewhat joy in not knowing what lies ahead of me. I think that as long as I know the rough direction I want to go in my future is going to be exciting, and thinking about it, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love the thought of the fact that one thing, one event, one time in my life, (good or bad) could change my opinion on life forever. It could change my career choices, the way I act, the way I think, the way I look and my whole lifestyle.

I then started to think about the somewhat near future and decided to make a list of what I wanted to do in the next couple of months and/ or years that is going to help me as a person:

  1. Treat myself and my body with a little more respect. What I mean by this is I think I should start listening to myself a little bit more, rather than being swayed by other people’s opinions. As for my body, this weekend I have already started to eat healthier, and I can already tell that this has made me more positive.
  2. Meet lots more wonderful people,  both online and offline, who are going to going to bring happiness to my life. Not that I don’t already have fab people in my life, but you can never have too many amazing dudes in your life, right?
  3. Read more books/ write more blog posts. I find that if I write about something, it gives me the motivation to actually do it. As for reading, it gives me the inspiration to write.
  4. Go to more shows, cultural events and theatre performances (of all kinds). I love the theatre, I always have, and I probably (hopefully) always will. I relax when I am in the theatre like nowhere else. I also think seeing lots of different performances will help me to understand lots of different things such as events in history and culture, as I always read up on the context of a piece of theatre before I go. 
  5. Pay attention and be thankful for all the little things in life. I have come to realise recently that you don’t know what you have until it’s gone, so for that reason, I am going to cherish every single little moment. 
  6. Finally, and maybe most importantly, i am going to try lots of different and new flavours of tea…. I LIKE TEA OKAY?!

I am hoping these things will help me find what I am supposed to do in life, and maybe help me find some new things that I love to do!

Ciao for now,


Don’t put your eggs in one basket.

Three months ago, I never thought I would be writing this post. I had lots of friends, and was in quite a popular group at school. 

I had one friend, for the purposes of this blog, I’ll be calling her Petal. Now, this one friend was my best friend. We did everything together. We went to parties, we had sleepovers, and spent the majority of our time together. 

Petal was always slightly more popular than I was, she was pretty and she always attracted more boys, and to be honest I didn’t mind that, as long as I was her friend. I was her wing man and she was my person. The person I told everything to. However she never treated me with the same respect that I treated her.

About two months ago Petal and I had an argument about how she treated me. didn’t seem to think that trying to make me like her was wrong. I disagreed.

She met an old friend whom she had been at primary school with. For the purposes of the blog, I will be calling this friend Stalk. Stalk had a lot more to offer than I did according to Petal. She had a bigger house, a lot more cool stuff, and could buy petal presents that I could only dream of affording.

According to Petal, these are crucial qualities to have when in a friendship. therefore petal decided that I was no longer worthy of a friendship. She pushed me out of the group, making everybody within it ignore me. 

I never understood what I did wrong and I was in utter despair. I cried for weeks and petal didn’t seem to care. However I haven’t spoken to her since. 

I have since spoken to some of the girls who were in the group. They also stood up to petal and also no longer in the group. She is losing friends. however Stalk is still by her side, and will be until she find somebody better, who can give her more.

The fact that Petal ditched me has opened so many doors of opportunity for me. For one, I have met a lot nicer friends, who treat me with the same respect as I do them. I have joined a drama group, and have already starred in a production of Phantom of the Opera, which was one of the best experiences of my life.

The moral of the story is it isn’t the end of the world if somebody disowns you because they find somebody better, they aren’t worth it, and they aren’t obviously the person you thought they were. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT.
I guess what I’m trying to say is don’t put all your eggs in one basket. Don’t focus all of your time on one thing, you never know what is round the corner…

~ Rose

Nice To Meet You…

Okay… Here it goes…

Oooh, I’m a little nervous!

Well hello, how are you?

I’m Rose. Well I’m not Rose. But for the purposes of this blog, I’m Rose.

So hey, my name is Rose, nice to meet you.

Before this blog, I had 3 other blogs, all of which are now deleted, for several reasons including me not having enough time. But to this blog, I will be committed.

I honestly have no idea where this blog is going to go.

I have no themes for posts, goals or any idea what I’m going to write about in this blog.

Ha, I’m saying blog too much.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy my endless ramblings on life, even if they do end up being a little crazy.

One day, I just hope I help someone by writing this blog, even if it is just making one person smile…..

Okay, I’m off, before this gets any deeper.

Lol, I’m so awkward.